You can never show me your heart because you blinded me with your lies.. not all the times but on those important one
There is never a day my heart stop beats for you, but you made me realise all these heartbeats are for the wrong reasons...
I wish there is a time where i could turn back and erase all these heartaches.. because it is never my intention to wash face with tears..
I couldn't ignore what you did, because it constantly reminds me on how dumb i can be for you.. and it hurts to know the way you treat me is "to let the time wash away the tears"..
Am i not worth being treated loyal by a man who love me? Have i done any sin that is so unforgivable that i can only be punished with a million stab to my heart? Am i just destined.... to not be loved?
There's never an easy day for me.. i hide away all the pains with smiles and joke.. but really, im having this constant headache that is tearing me apart..
I want an end to it.. because i wanted to shine again sincerely.. i wanna tell the world that im in love again.. that im back on track.. that i stand up once again for love.. for a man i love and for i know he will treat me right..
How can this be so hard?
Sunday, July 17, 2016
Thursday, January 7, 2016
Congratulations!
Congratulations on your new girl!
Although it is not something I'm surprise on, it still show me that you still choose to lie..
There are stuff you should cover, but there are situation you could not cover with all your might..
When your honesty doesn't checks out, then it can only be accompanied with all eyes seeing at you in an unfavorable way..
I did wonder why you still choose to deny, and at the end, i convinced myself that it was because you still wanted to recover your dignity with lies..
Then, looking back, I can only see myself as a blind, brainless woman who doesn't wanna accept the truth and only keep on hurting myself..
So, my new years' resolution is to be a happier me! - by subtracting you from my life..
This was never an easy solution.. but you made it easier by showing me how rubbish i am all these while..
Although it is not something I'm surprise on, it still show me that you still choose to lie..
There are stuff you should cover, but there are situation you could not cover with all your might..
When your honesty doesn't checks out, then it can only be accompanied with all eyes seeing at you in an unfavorable way..
I did wonder why you still choose to deny, and at the end, i convinced myself that it was because you still wanted to recover your dignity with lies..
Then, looking back, I can only see myself as a blind, brainless woman who doesn't wanna accept the truth and only keep on hurting myself..
So, my new years' resolution is to be a happier me! - by subtracting you from my life..
This was never an easy solution.. but you made it easier by showing me how rubbish i am all these while..
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