冬节

Tong Yun Day! =p

Are You Ready? ;)

today is one of those days =)

"No one could make you feel happy, except yourself" sounds very lonely

"Like it or not, you still have to move on" sounds very forceful

"Ignore like it never happen before" sounds very avoiding

"Hide the sadness with a smile, and everything will go smoothly" sounds very untruthful

But, this is life.. This is what human always do to avoid any conflict happens in between..

And the one who shows the truth sometimes will be labelled as emo..

Today is one of those days

Where you are facing the one, but show in no response..

The one who could never bring back those feelings, those memories..

Those eager in you that you remember it every second and wanted to voice out..

Those phrase that once warms your heart entirely,

Those action that shows not only to you, but as proof to the world that you are in a happy state..

I knew it, when I wish I never will know

Back Up

To push all the negative away

To make room for positive energy

To not crush down when being pressed

To not let people hold your nose easily

Learning is an eternity process

When you are 8, you are learning to be 10

When you are 18, you are learning to be 28

It doesn't matter who you are, where you are, even, what you are

As long as you are breathing, you are learning

Move a step back, does not makes you a coward

Move a step forward, does not makes you look courages either

Definition defined by you is unique

Unique definition by defined is standard

Never Ending

Personally, I find it a norm for all to wish for a happy ending whenever they are watching movie(s)

Partly because after all the twist and turns, those character deserve to have better..

But it could be partly because we often wish we were in the movies, and that the storyline may / could be the same.. Having to think of it, isn't this running away from reality?

I'm sure there are some of us, especially me, always think of something happy before we fall asleep..

This carries a hope that our happy moments could continue into dream.. And often dreams can be so realistic..

Again, running away from reality?

Something new can be a habit in a long term, and this habit can turn into bitter memories..

If we humans, naturally attracted to new stuff that may or may not lead into becoming a habit, which may or may not cause the existent of bitter memories, is it an act of our Karma?

Happy or not, like it or hate it, you still have to move on with your Life

Remember, it is always your choice and you do have a choice..

I know there are times where the ending are not as how you expected..

But ask yourself, do you honestly enjoy the process? If you are enjoying the process, then the outcome should be the least of your worries, because we do not know or judge tomorrows' weather accurately..

This is actually specially dedicated to a dear fren of mine..

You bring the sunshine when those around you are in their darkest moments..

You bring the laughter when there are tears flying around..

And now, I hope you feel better with this little post of mine..

I do not know, and do not have the right to force you to tell..

It's your willing to open up to others, to the world..

Be sincere to your heart.. Although the heart may crashed plenty of times.. It never fails to pump your blood..

Do not compare, because once you compare, it can be never ending :)

可惜，不是我

爱，只需要两个用心的人

不用多说，不用多做，

真爱就能够感觉得到。

可惜，那个幸福的人不是我。

因为我知道，也感觉得到，你在做什么。

也许有一天你我都会改变。

也许不因该说改变，而是清醒。

Tough ones

The tough moments that makes you cry..

Not because you are weak, but because you are strong for some time..

The tough moments that makes you wanna give up..

Not because you wanted to, but because you learnt to accept the fact..

Each and every one of us been through different hardships..

The different are how do we handle it..

So the next time you feel down, tell yourself this:-

;D

Awaiting.. *gan cheong- nyerrr*

Currently I am just waiting for the good news..

Finger cross!! =)

是否，你决定

她问 - “你的心里还有我吗？”

他说 - “不。。。你就是我的心”

那么，，，  “等，会痛吗？”

Life

In life, there is always a "BUT"..........   =)

Have you..?

Have you ever wonder where does all the feelings comes from?

Have you ever thought why is this happening now in this very wrong situation?

Have you ever felt so strong about something, that sometimes could suffocate you alive?

Well, first of all, pardon me as im a lil bit tipsy..

Yeah, this few weeks im a lil addicted to alcohol.. because it is the only thing could make me fell asleep soundly..

I sometimes wonder, why.., why.., and infinity of why's..

And often searching for answers that never meant to be revealed..

Say me stubborn, or say me naive.. because I believe the truth is there..

It is only a matter of you accepting it or not..

Humans, they get tired.. me neither..

But this doesn't means I want it to be that way..

It's just simply means, one hand could not make a clap..

If you were to ask me again, and again, and again,

My dear Hubby, I still love you with all my heart

Unexpectedly

I'm sick..

The first day of my leave begins and I'm sick..

Fever and cough is not a good combination..

But it is a good time for me to really take some rest and avoid those unexpected situations..

Before i fell sick, I must thanks to those frens who drink with me..

What's more interesting is that we're drinking with a fren at overseas via webcam!

Seriously! It's a very touching moments and I thank the advance technology =D

As agreed by me and him, red wine does not makes u vomit *i like*, but KO you very fast..

Either way, or it's just me and him being very cha sui =p

as time pass...

hmmmm.. it doesn't heal even by little

I'm losing myself

Forgive me for losing myself in loving you

I've gone crazy thinking over the matter again and again and I begin to not recognize who I am anymore..

But as tough as it can be, as strong as I may stand,

I know for sure of one facts of life..

I LOVE YOU

I really DO

对不起

Other than the title as above, I have no words to say anymore..

I'm Sorry...

for being such an emo person for the past days..

for being such a monster in making everyone worries..

for hurting the person I love..

for not handling well when facing any circumstances..

for making everything worse..

for apologizing at this late period..

for not realizing earlier what I have caused..

I thank those who scolded me, who warn me, who advice me, who listen to me..

Because I now know who am I, and what I've become..

Most of all, I thank those who gave me so much patience and tolerance even though I'm being such an @$$

*sorry for the improper word*

I truly am sincerely Sorry =)




Happy 23rd Monthiversary Hubby!
I love the way you smile, the way you laugh, the way you look so shy yet handsome ♥
I love every moment spending with you, not only the good times, but also the bad times ♥
I still feel sweet to the heart thinking back all those memories and I love it ♥
I love you for giving me so much I never dreamt I would have ♥
I love you for stepping into my life, and make a significant place at the whole of my heart ♥
Hopefully our love can go through, till the end ♥


I ♥ YOU

辛苦

辛苦的时候，没人知道。

做得好，是因该。

做不好，是你错。

Always the disappointed one

*sigh*

INJURIES

they always comes, stays awhile, and sometimes leaves scar..

at times we may feel pain, and we respond with either a shock expression or Ouch..

Sometimes we may heal it ourself, but all of the time, we let Time heal it away..

Whether how pain it is, its true that Time Will Heal =)

Dear Me,

I am sorry for always letting you to be fake all the times..

I promise to let you feel better when others are not around..

At the mean time, please endure it..

With much Love,

Me

The Truth

It's not because of the task,

It's not because of the involvement.

IT IS BECAUSE OF THE DISRESPECT FEELS

The Invisible

Honestly speaking, I really do not understand why is it so hard for some ppl to follow simple guidelines..

A sign of rebellious? A sign of challenge? A sign of showing who is more superior?

*^#$%@*(@*^$#^%*&#^(!*$(@%^&#*^%*#&^$(@*

As to one person has its limit in everything,

I HAVE MINE TOO!

To accept changes at one time, i know it's difficult..

That's why i kept on telling my superior to give them time, and time will let them realise changes is for their better..

But time given is more than enough and yet, still the same mistake happen each time..

I've been dishonest with my heart and make some dishonest report just to cover their butt..

No appreciation from them, i do not blame them..

But indirectly showing disrespect of my visible physical me is a NO NO!

I do not know of how many time i had headache just because of them,

I do not know of how many times i had to be dishonest because of them..

If they felt they are suffering more than me, THINK AGAIN!

Im the one who is in the middle of everything and soon enough, im gonna be dead!

Here, i am not complaining that i should quit what am i doing now..

Point being is giving me all these action that is not acceptable yet you feeling it's right is just pain in the ARSE!

I dun have the responsibility to apologize on your behalf, why should I?

I dun have the power to control you, why should I?

I did not lost temper on any of you for making mistake, why should I?

Still when im being soft, I felt like im being taken for granted, is this how you wan to be treated?

i am done with tolerating with smiles..

Smiles that sometimes is just tears in the heart,

And it's bleeding badly to know how am i being treated when i treat with sincere heart..

So, that's it.. Time to be firm as wat my superior told me..

To be firm and strict, if this is the only option will make them realise..

It is time, to begin now..

Being unfair in fair decision?

He rush come in while i was changing..

He saw me only with my underneath clothes on..

Yet, no action taken against him..

Because he is mentally challenged..

Now, he left me with none but haunted memory, nightmares, and afraid

Sincerely, i wanna get out

Ze Family Potrait

Ever watch in movies of those who took family portraits while the kids are young,

And then update the faces when they are older?

In my family, we never really had a professional family portrait taken..

So, what we had is just our camera =)

Happy Birthday Daddy <3

Redang changed to Pangkor

Hmm.. fair enough, all fully booked at Redang as we only decide last minute,.

So our destination change to Pangkor instead.

To my surprise, it isn't very nice there except the accomodation..

Because,.. not that clean enough for me though *shhh*

A short 3D2N trip went fairly well,

Except the part where im all ache due to the watersport game -_-

Anyhow, will be waiting for the next short trip!! XD

Mom-sy Day

Happy Mother's Day!!

My mom wasn't highly educated, but she taught us manners,

She wasn't the rich type, but enough to make us feel rich with love,

She never hope for much, but for the better of our living,

Through every bumps, she'll be there regardless she have the solution or not..

She is very protective, as she dun allow others to bully us.

She is very brave, to face the pain the very moment she got us in her womb.

She never complaint eventhough I feel the situation is not fair for her.

She only said she understand and doesn't wanna give me hard times.

I am thankful for her in everything.

And I am grateful that she gives me this life.

I am proud to have her in my life as MOM.

And there's no any other words more superior than to say, I Love You.

Mommy, Happy Mother's Day.

I Love You till the very end of my life.

The higher, might not be the better

have you ever felt so much pressure that you are unable to do anything except praying very hard that this will soon be over?

have you ever felt so pressure that there's no one can help u to release it except you, yourself, have to see it in different angle?

i did.. =(

so much pressure that i can only smile to others but crying to myself..

so much pressure that each time waking up to work felt like a heavy stone in my head..

so much hurt that i feel which result in crying overnight on the weekend b4 Monday comes =="

hence, in time, i was thinking, is this the pressure that i deserve?

i do not mean to find any excuses to claim that i'm unable to do..

what im pointing out is that i cannot split myself into half at 1 time..

to be at point A and point B at the same time is IMPOSSIBLE

and i tried to find a solution out, but it's not acceptable among the "bosses"..

what they see in their eyes is that i did not present what they expect me to be..

but what they do not know is i tried at my maximum best to juggle myself between point A and point B..

it's good to have someone guide you and teach you along the way..

but it would be too much and hard to digest if all were pour at once

isn't it a waste?

Bar-B-Q Plaza

The 1st time im a noob in a restaurant XD

Went to Times Square and had late lunch with Hubby at Bar B Q Plaza..

Quite an experienced as we had to look at other table to know how to actually cook the food and eat =p

Surprisingly, we ate for 3 people's portion and yet, hmm.. not really full for me

Then run under the raining weather to get a case for his sis and fly it over to Adelaide

Yes, we're the loving family type.. LOL

*hugzzz*

Mosquito!

i hate you

yes, random.. still i hate you

Happy Happy Birthday!!

Another year older, my love ones XD

1stly, of course i hope you enjoyed the surprises

i, personally also love to see your shocking face XD LOL

Honestly, i do not know how to hold a grand party, as i also failed to do one for myself..

But among the families, i hope you love it

*USJ home*

*Tamarind Springs, Ampang*

*USJ home*

*Tamarind Springs, Ampang*

*Cheras home*

As this is already a late post,

Happy Belated Birthday, Hubby!!

Krabi, Thailand

Over the weekend, my family and i had a very quick, short, and fun trip to Krabi, Thailand.

Packed myself loaded with stuff and ready to head for the sea, but the unfortunate happen..

- Tsunami -

50/50 of mood, because cannot indulge myself with water sport..

But i do enjoy myself with land activity..

Take a look:-

It's nice to have such trips

To really get rid of all the stress, sadness, and welcome peace and harmony..

To date, i hope there are more trips ahead of me XD

The Power of Me and You, The Power of Love

Came across with this MV that really touches my heart..

A soon to be happy ending with a lil twist *reality*

I don't know how many guyz out there can do the same as what the lyrics present

But one thing for sure, Chris Medina is doing it =)

p/s: Please Pause the song on bottom left side bar before you hit Play on this song =)

Amazing Grace

It's amazing how time has gone by so fast, you were already in my past for months..

Looking back the time when i knew you, you were so small and fragile..

That's when the future vision strike in, where i dreamt you were in my arm..

Soon enough, just like a blink of an eye, the horror made it's mark..

Deep down in me that i wished i can defend it..

To make me strong and protect you as close as possible..

But i failed.. =(

Countless tears ran through my cheek,

Infinity needles poked into my heart,

But no matter how suffer i feel,

These suffer are nothing compared to what's going happen to you.

Though i thought im gonna be Okay, i was wrong..

Perhaps i was avoiding it,

Perhaps i was covering it with smiles,

But when the times comes, i'll cry and i still will..

I now know how vulnerable it is to have those feeling,

A feeling that cannot be describe in words,

Because you, my dear, is beyond any words on earth..

*i do not know why i still post these, mayb it's the knot that still unable to untie in me*

*i am emo, you may say, but this is the Me i dun wanna fake*

Feeling shy but feel the urge to express your love?

I always enjoy watching people(s) expressing their love to their loved ones.

It's heart warming and touching *sometimes drop a few tears* with some blessing from my sincere heart..

But there are some who is shy to voice it out..

Couldn't find the courage to say/do so..

On the contrary, there are also some who wished it can be more special..

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Standing on the fence

Neutral; No feeling; Numb

And so the dramatic emo mood come along, playing around me..

Things i want, haven't happen

Things i unexpected, happen so fast

And there goes my another hope for the month

Glazing at so much news, I sometimes wonder myself of why are they behave like that

Perhaps I do not understand the world, or perhaps I haven't realize myself

Being in misery certainly not mystery

Stuck for a moment, and i dunno how to continue,

here, i end my typing =)

That day~~~

ME, my hubby, and his fren, Mr. Thang Zhi Wei went on a random trip..

3 of us went to Taiping, Penang, and Ipoh for V-Day trip *can't believe it XD *

While Zhi Wei was driving, i love the feeling of sitting at the back seat, filling myself with food!

hahaha!

And not to forget, can take a short/long nap along the trip

But i do missed out few scenery along the way

It felt so fast *duh~~ only 3 days*, and i missed it

The feeling of randomly going places *wasted too much time searching =p *

The feeling of forgetting all those trouble *yes, all those nonsense bitchy stuff*

The feeling of seeing stuff with own eyes *YEAH!*

STILL, i wonder when will be the next random trip XD

我看不起你！

When everyone kept their mouth silence for a moment, you just have to open your big mouth and brag about just anything..

When everyone tolerate with you, you just have to talk big making only yourself thinks you are the correct one..

When everyone just wanna find out the truth, you have to come up with something to make yourself looks like the most pity one..

Why?

Why is it so hard to just say the fact?

Why is it so hard to face the fact?

Why is it so hard to show you are at wrong?

Why is it so hard to clear those name you make false claim on?

Why is it your name is so important that you felt others names' not?

Why is it always only about you?

Why is it only your feeling that others' should care?

Why is it your action cannot be judge but controls others' movement?

Why is your mind always thinks you are the pity ones?

Why is your mind always thinks you suffer the most?

Why is your mind always thinks others don't suffer the same pain no less than you?

Why is your mind always thinks to win and only win?

Why are you just plain talking without facing those who wanna face you?

Why are you just thinking it's your family that's breaking?

Why are you just thinking bout your own feeling?

Why are you just know how to say others and only pointing fingers out?

Don't act like a saint when others only feel you are a satan

Now that i know what lies behind, you are no different than her..

Because i used to chose be quiet, different than what i am now, doesn't mean im changed..

It's just people keep tolerate and pamper you but you never realize it..

You said you appreciate of what have done to you, but it's merely just words..

Because to you, it's much important you have your good reputation, show being the weakest by faking it, gets everyone to stand by your side whether it's right or wrong, wanting respect from all level of ages, and because you think you have suffer the worst situation a human can ever experience..

Nonetheless, we should be thanking you..

Because you show us your true color by leaking your evil tail..

Because you acted like you gave up when actual fact you did all those small action behind..

Because your mouth point sharp at people for being childish but you are the one acted like one..

Because you are able to almost break a family apart, a family that you used to say helped you alot..

Because you said you appreciate everything when actual fact, you did not..

Because you see the problem comes from everyone except you

Because it's only you and everything bout you is important more than anything else..

Because you only care on how people's perspective towards you, and not you being the truth to ownself..

Please bare in mind that you are not the middle person of 2 families, he is..

Please bare in mind that you are not as important as you think you are, each individual is equally important..

Please bare in mind that you are not always correct, because no human being never done mistakes and this INCLUDES me..

Please remember that the earth is round, and time keep moving even you doesn't appear in ones' life

The fragile one, Or the right one?

COURT~~~

another case happened..

what should went peacefully end up so wrong..

Right or wrong does not ly on anything or anyone..

But when you did something involving other person and it went wrong, then you are wrong..

Using other person's stuff without permission is considered wrong..

What happen if you put other person's name and put it in a wrong situation?

One case happen before and it happen again..

If there's so much unsatisfied about, why dun juz come to me straight?

Why wanna make so much turns and it'll only end up to me?

This doesn't show how clever u handle the situation..

This only gives the opportunity to others to add some extra information

The only wish i wished for is to you able to face me and explain why you did it

If it's my wrong, point it out to me..

Show me proof just like how you wan others to prove to you..

I'm nobody to you, then who are you to me?

I dun allow my name to be at the wrong situation, then who are you to juz simply use my name *snap* like that?

In a battle war, every1 feels tired..

it's like draining all of the blood from one body, then left a few drop for it to die..

To concern, to care, to help, not only in financial term..

Other aspect also can be involved..

it's funny how often that when 1 word wrong from you, it's our wrong..

and when 1 word wrong from us, it's still our wrong..

Laugh it out? then no one is by ur side..

I would say you are wrong when u said everyone only wants to win..

Well, it depend on situation..

Bcoz i know he is at the "lose" side..

And because he dun mind, he did it with a smile and sacrifizing own family..

Be it respect or money, love or hate, normal or not, it's always others whom he care 1st..

I totally agree with what you said..

Everything you said..

Unfortunately the only flaw is that you only apply it to yourself..

You have lifes.. others?

You have own future.. others?

You spend your own earn.. others??

You have ur own problem.. others??

You suffer some stuff in some situation.. others??

OKAY!~

don't wanna mention bout others as i dun hv the right, then i mention bout me..

My name, what you care?

Why is it you have to twist things using my name and then don't dare to face me?

Why you wants me to delete stuff then dun call me straight?

You have your personal hates and we don't?

Of all the option and you have to confuse everything?

Of all the human in the world, you have to say it's you when there's not a single alphabet mentioning bout you?

Your perasan case have to be everyone's fault?

Your tears have to be wipe by others?

Your mistake have to be blame by others?

Your responsibility have to be taken by others?

Then.... why are you still breathing?

Where's the point of all this?

Not everyone wants to win.. only you

Because to some, they only wan the truth and be fair

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