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today i went to cut my hair short.. again, it looks ugly.. but nvm.. coz it'll grow back soon.. =)

Say what??

There's a hole in my teeth that the filling came off..
so, i went to c dentist..
Dentist says it's serious and said some words that already hurt my feeling..
it's because my teeth is not straight..

i wanted to put braces since i was 12..
but my mom said "natural is beauty" that's y she rejected..
however, she won't know how i felt facing ppl when they look at my teeth..

i cry and cry and all i have was tears..
i really wanted to put braces..
but my parent only recommend me to cut the vain so that it won't pain..

mayb in this life, im destined to be sad over my teeth..
mayb in this life, i can only envy those who have great smile..

Alone iN my World

This morning, Hubby had a plan that is bring me to watch the Love Guru movie..

my sis said it was hilarious so i told Hubby that i wanna watch..

For brunch, we went to Kim Gary eat..

Then i saw Hubby msg that someone will come..

He said it was his ex.. regarding her phone problem..

Then, we wait for her to arrive..

Moments later, loneliness has arrive too..

i wasn't mind that Hubby's ex came,

but the way he talk to her, i felt like a stranger there..

all i can do was looking and drinking my "Yin Yong Milk"

of all the long conversation he had with her, he only talk to me once which is...

"Look at this".. and he show me her phone..

As both of them were talking, my eyes is only like a camera, rolling and recording their movement as in a video..

This is not that 1st time i met her, but it's the 1st time i felt like a lamp, shining them,.. or mayb too bright that Hubby forgot im there..

When the gal said she wanna smoke, Hubby said "faster check the phone then we can go outside for u to smoke"..

Little that he know that i haven't even finish my drink.. the drink is still half full..

The gal said Hubby can fix the phone taking away the sim card..

But Hubby insisted her to use his phone..

i dunno why, i could only ask myself why..

Finally, when they finish talk and paid the bill, he said "let's go"

i wanted to tell him i haven't even finish my drink..

But he was too fast b4 i could reach my hand touching him and tell him..

When i look at him, he's only facing his ex watching her walking out from the shop..

From that moment, i really felt heart breaking..

Yes, he did turn around look at me once..

And that time i already quickly suck all the "Yin Yong Milk" into my mouth..

Though he did hold my hand, i dun think he knows my heart is breaking..

After the movie, we went back to Hubby's house..

He fell asleep after a few times trying to "tam" me..

i face the wall and cried..

Cry until i felt tired, i went out to toilet..

i wash my face, hoping my eyes won't be obvious from the effect of crying..

but i know part of the bed is wet..

Mayb when he woke up, he din know the bed was wet..

he even told me "lucky u din cry"

yeah, i din cry bcoz when i did, he was sleeping..

even snooring..

in the end, like wat happen everytime in the past,

he always have reason to say when im sad or angry..

example being sick, argue with parents, etc etc..

Im not saying he can't tell me when he's sick,

But i'll think why is there so much coincidence that whenever im sad or angry, he'll say other thing out bout himself??

Merdeka!!~

Yesterday was th 1st time ever i watch fireworks with my other half..

My bf brought me to The Curve to watch firework..

It was the happy moment counting down the seconds to Merdeka and able to wish him face to face "Happy Independence Day" =D

However, the day b4 Merdeka, Hubby said he'll meet his pet sis *which was his ex*

I dun mind coz he will bring me together..

But during my destinaton to home, i've asked him something..

That is im curious why does his ex could find a bf in a short time after letting go previous relationship..

He answered me "bcoz she's loveable by everyone, everyone likes her"..

These words amy seems harmless.. but for me, i straight kept quiet..

coz i was thinking, im not like that, im not like her, no much ppl wll like me like how they like her..

There's one time Hubby tell me.. he said that his mom asked him why i din talk to his parent..

Thus, i know, most of Hubby's ex weren't afraid to talk to his parent..

Then i know, somehow, im a failure =(

4 roses in family

To my parent heart, there are 4 human being that they need to concern 99% of their life..
I heard from many ppls that being parent is hard..
And to able raising 4 noisy "dragon" in house makes it harder..
But no matter what we did, or how wrong we are,..
They always are the one who forgive us..
Leading us back to the right path,
Eventhough it may take some pain..

Day by day, the 4 roses in family grow up..
Time by time 4 roses is changing in the eyes of my parent..
Years by years preparing for the independent life of their own,..
Second by second they protect dearly the 4 roses..

And the 4 roses that will always appreciate my parent,..
Is none other than my sisters and myself..
To love we say to lovely parent,..
WE LOVE YOU

Please go AWAY!!~

As i watch time goes second by second,
The fear in me gets stronger and stronger..
Table that is full of papers and books,
Makes my head go round and round..

As i grew older,
i found out it's hard to be a student..
wat's more to be an excellent student.
That's why i try my best in everything,
and hope and pray for a little luck not to fail..

The fear of fail,
The fear of lose,
The fear of sad,
The fear of lonely,
Please Go Away...

Station 1

Yesterday my parent went to Genting again..

Left me and my sis at home, we invite our cousin and HuBBy ^^ to skate at Pyramid..

After that, we planned to swim at my new condo, but it was too late..

Hence, we went to ate at Asia Cafe for our dinner..

After dinner, my cousin, sis, HuBBy and i went to Station 1 for drink..

It was nice hearing ppl sang song and enjoying drink while chatting..

Sis took a pic of me =)

Ppl who sang at Station 1

Hehehe

a little clip from my b'day

Below is 2 of the clip that is taken during the celebration of my birthday..
It's kinda dark and hard to see..
For those whom eyes is SUPER, enjoy XD