Work.. Job.. Me..

Monday i'll be starting my work..

My 1st official job after finished my studies..

Happy??.. Excited??.. i have none

Michelle asked me something today which make me also wonder myself

"how come you doesn't look like ppl who anxious for work??"

I questioned myself the same too

The answer??.. i have non to it

Only forcing myself to like it,

Forcing myself to go for this job..

In fact, i din even expect to go there and work..

Dad wants me to get higher position with higher salary,

Yes, and with what qualification??

Only a degree cert enough for me to get in without any experience??

Even if i want to, company that din give me chance, how can i possibly work..

Telling me to make my own decision,

and when i did, words *harsh words* come strike attacking me..

Attacked so hard, i dun even know who i am anymore

Only tears accompany me

Thank u tears =)

At times, i feel myself very stubborn

Stubborn to the level that i cannot accept the fact

But why gv me hope, and slap me with reality??

Is this how it ought to be??

Where we will never get what we want for but got what we less hope for

Reflection reflect upon me,.. I'm stubborn

Torn between 2

A) job that i feel i would prefer

B) job that is near to my hse *less prefer based on feeling*

HOW??

I still don't believe you

Trusting u, seems to get very far away from me

In the beginning i gave u all my trust

When u take it for granted, i gave u another chance

Trusting u will never fail me,

Trusting u'll prove to me my decision is correct

But then again, u have fail me

Thinking i'll be happier when i know nothing

I'm more sad than u can ever imagine when i see your lying face

A face that is so scared i'll know everything

A face that kept every little thing from me

A face that i wouldn't wanna face in my life

A face that i once thought i knew has gone

Do u understand simple english??

I said i dun mind if u keep in touch wit her

I said u can still continue be frens wit her

As long as u dun lie me

Is this too much to ask??

Or am i not as important as her??

U told me u hate it when i lied

U told me u are mad if i do so

But have u ever imagine i'll feel the same if i know u lied??

I never force u to stop sms her

I never force u to throw away every memory of her in ur mind

U willingly tell me u'll never contact her to make me happy

Is this just a lie when u actually did sms her??

All im hearing is u saying u love me

u called me as ur wife to ur frens

Is this all just a dream??

Why u have to break my heart again and again??

U think im jealous when i know u contact her

IM NOT.. understand??

i'm SAD when i know u lied me

I'M SAD WHEN I KNOW U LIED ME..

can open ur eyes BIG BIG and read properly??

If this is so difficult for u to understand

Then just make it easy..

I'll never care who u be with,

U dun come asking me who am i with

I'll lie every single second i can

Using all of your money when u gave me

If this is what u want, i can do it

Dun try to challenge my patience and trust

Being sad till the maximum level,

I dun even know how to cry out..

I only knew, i got nothing to talk..

If i'm a doll to u, u are nothing but atm machine to me

I dun think i can trust u anymore.. accept this fact

Let it be~~

let it go

let it go

let it go

Nitez

InterviewS


i had juz finish with my 2nd interview for this week..
1st, i attended the interview on Monday at Standard Chartered
2nd was in SJenie, part of Bursa Malaysia..

Now, im juz waiting for their call, whether i got hired or not..
Asking me which to prefer, it's equal XD *seems like i have no direction in life*
But i do accept everything that comes to me so that i can learn more..
Taking every opportunity i can and make it my strength ;)

Blood Day


Miracle does happen!!
went to check on my uni's website and found out my mark got changed..
was so excited, that i thought my eyes is playing my mind..
the best part was, i got another chance in re-sit the failed paper..
So, wat else im suppose to do but start my revision.. again?? XD

Wooi Wooi said there's a type of ice cream @ Taipan is nice
So we went out there, sneak a lil while, and had the ice cream..
Me and her shared coffee flavor.. while Ying and DuDu shared mango flavor


DaD and MoM went out again..
and then, we let WiN WiN come in..
while Wooi Wooi and DuDu make fruit juice, the noise got loud..
it scares WiN WiN that she sit on sofa until dun wanna move.. =)




Speaking bout blood day, i got injured..
sad case!
accidently cut my hand and it's the day before i re-sit my exam.. *sigh..*

Seems like im making big things out of small matters??
Try look at the picture below..

This is how much amount of blood i have rushing out from my nose!!
and haven't include the amount that drip off b4 i get to reach for tissue paper.. =(

Nose bleed until can do some pattern on the tissue.. LOL

Finally, i've done with my re-sit test.. Now juz waiting for result..

Hopefully got pass.. then i can start my work XD