Unwanted feeling struck me again =(

Here it goes again..
the unwanted feeling have suddenly struck me deeply..


the feeling of loneliness..

the feeling of unwanted..

the feeling of afraid of facing others as i compare myself to her..

It is not by purposely that my mind always thought bout it..
It is by accident where ur heart beats fast knowing something ugly will arrive..
It is not always the happiness can cover the sadness..
It is where the reality of you having to face the cruel fact..

By looking at picture, she's beautiful..
What more to say when meeting her in real??..

I knew that i have him now..
Physically and mentally..
It is not him who troubles me..
It is my inner self that giving me problem..

Only in his arm i can feel the secure..
Only in his arm i can feel the warmth..
Only in his arm i can feel LoVe..
Only in his arm i can feel ME..