it's now 9.30am, thursday

currently im at college library typing this blog..

im sooo SLEEPY =(

have no choice because had group meeting at 10.30am

if i din follow my sis, i can't make it to college..


yesterday i slept at almost 2am..

then woke up at 7.30am..

at 1st, i did thought of calling Hubby to fetch me..

But he drank abit last nite..

guess he'll headache so i canceled my thought..


from the second i woke up till now,

im still Yawning..

"Yawning is like a transferable dieasis, are you yawning after looking at this pic??"


oh gosh.. i really miss my bed, blanket, pillow, bolster,

another day waking up to college,

another day group partner said got group meeting,

another day he said he overslept,

another day delayed the meeting to another day.


2day i sms-ed my group partner..

he late reply so i head to The Curve wit my sis

Then, sms came in, and said my partner overslept..

=_=


haih.. so how leh..

need to delayed to another day, which is tomorrow..

hope tomorrow can finish all coz the due date is freaking NEAR..


after that, me and sis went to summit

eat and drink, omg im fat!!

"at the back seat of the car"

"another pic at the back seat of the car"

"Another another pic at the back seat of the car.. LOL"

Today, the uni guard made me feel frustrated..

when i find a parking spot inside, they tell me "it's full, no more parking"

today, i asked if there's parking inside, they say got

End up, being inside there unable to find a single spot for my car =_=

Result??.. Can't attend my class..

Fortunately, this lecture din take attendance..

if not, i really should say "Thank You Genius Guard"

"Try for once, hear what's within You rather than what's in Your Eyes"

"Cam whore while waiting for parking spot XP "

Today my lecturer lecture me about my group assignment

This made me very sad as there's only me who being lectured in class..

It is not sad that i being lectured,

it's sad because it's my group partner whom delayed time

I rushed them, they ask me to wait..

i waited, and get scolded..



*Sigh*.. dun really know wat to do..

only mute and listen to lecturer talk..


After class, i did not went back..

i sat in car driving and driving..

until i stop at Hubby working place..



i dare not tell him wat happen because i couldn't stop crying..

it's ok for he not knowing wat happen..

because as long as im around there,

i can feel he's near and im not alone..



after cried for bout an hour, i went back

another day has to come,

another day has to live

"What's hurt most is not being lonely in the world, but being lonely in oneself heart"

"If wind can dry water, why isn't wind dry my tears?"

Yesterday, i went to Ikea with Hubby,
Both of us were talking about future as it had became present,
Giving me the feeling of warm and Love,
I wish it can faster come into Now.

"Rain can wash away alot of things, but my love for you will remain the same"

It's raining outside,

adding the cold atmosphere inside,

Another day without looking at You,

another time i felt "I Miss You"

"Never look down at these 3 little words, as this 3 little words can be very strong"

When you are not here, i can do alot of things,

Things that i can do privately on my own,

But eventhough i've successfully done my things,

Missing you in the picture won't be the same.

"There's no one can complete these puzzle in my heart, except You"


Remember the times i promise you,

Never will i think alot when you are not by my side,

I've tried my best of keeping my promise,

But the promise always comes with tears.

"I promise not to cry, But the tears always come rolling down my cheek"

As i sat alone by myself,

i stare at a place and day dream,

Dream of the dreams i wish it to came true,

Dream of the dreams where there's only Me and You.

"Perhaps there's only Moon who knew how i really felt for you right now"

As i watch the times goes by,

those are the intangible things i can't stop,

i can't stop the time to tick,

nor i can't stop myself to think.


All i can do was,

sitting alone as,

i watch days and nights exchange duties.

"In the end, there's no one go together with you except YOU"

To face death is not the scariest thing,

it is the Pain what's frighten me most.


Though many ppl says Death is unlucky,

But if there's no Death, where's a new Life?

"Dreams are made from hope and joy, where's the dream to Death in Peace?"

Sweat Day

Yesterday, my sis and i went for badminton at our new condo..
due to hot sun, we actually played inside squash place for out badminton..
When we talk, there's voice coming back..
heard like in a cave.. LOL

Later today, i saw some touching moments..
a galss car tyre no air..
so 2 of the student help her without hoping any return.,
how touching XD

Sad is still sad,
It's not bout Mad,
It's all bout Me,
For me will always be Me.

Day 3

Today is the 3rd day HuBBy works for his new boss..
which means also the 3rd day i cannot be with him..
mayb i was thinking too much.. too much until i had the sad dream again..
and the dream, goes like this..

"We may not know what we'll see when we dream, but hope and pray it'll be a good one"

i was helping my fren doing a modelling show..
during the modelling show, there's a gal who is very frenly to every1
i dunno wat's her name, so juz call her A
after the show, i asked Hubby to come fetch me
But he said he's bz and he has left his favorite skyline car for me to drive home..
i am happy bcoz although he can't come, he still left his fav car for me..
and i no need to walk home..

"Smile does not make problems go away, but smile can make ones looks problem a different way"


half way driving home, i started to feel hungry..
so i went to a restaurant to buy some food..
i called Hubby asking he wanna eat or not..
he replied "no, im having meeting with my boss"
once he cut off the phone, i saw a Myvi, very familiar..
it looks like Hubby's myvi car..

"It was this car that made me and Hubby met"

i parked my car and went down..
then i saw A coming down from the myvi and she greet me
i asked her, "hi, who u come with?"
she din't answer me but pointing into Myvi..
then i saw, it was HuBBy..

"When ones feel lonesome, who can help except themselves?"

i couldn't believe my eyes, reasoning with myself that they are nth..
but then again, if it was nth, why would he tell me he's meeting with his boss??
Is his boss was A??.. or is there something i cannot know??
i couldn't help my feeling bursting out so i ran into the skyline and drove off..

"How fast is fast?"

speeding from 20 - 40 - 60 - 80, and continue until the maximum speed..
i was driving off lane until the racing track..
then, i crash into one of the car and passed away..

"We may never know where we'll go when we had our last breath, so live life with no regrets"

everything was so real, that i jump out from my dream..
this dream happen after i saw some1s picture in frenster..
i was looking around at other ppl profile and picture..
unexpectedly, HuBBy's ex pic appear infront of me..
i know it's past but i still dunno why am i still afraid of looking at her pic..

"Sometimes the fear make oneself look like a lil child, innocent and scared"

was it really fear??.. or was it sad of what HuBBy lied to me when he meet her alone??
it has already past, and i know i should let it go
i thought i really dun mind bout that case anymore..
but why am i still feeling sad??

"Let the past be past and never look back to follow the same sad track"