to be honest...

To be honest, I just don't know how to communicate with you..
You are like the ball hanging on a thread.. Wind blows that enable you to move everywhere..
I couldn't understand what you really want.. because it seems like you have a minor Alzheimer..

I do understand that people got their own way of doing work.. mine too!
Some people care for the results, while others care for the process..
But with you, you are just wanting a puppet of your own.. to follow what you want them to do..
A puppet that is a replica of you.. another you.. the twins you..

To be honest, that is not me :)

It is not friendly at all

I understand that some competition can trigger people to be motivated..
It is good especially a friendly kind of competition.. It just helps to move people around..

But too much of the competition can not only make it worst, but also make the people becomes individualist, selfish, fake, and lies.. at least, this is what i think, what i feel..

It has only becomes the "face game" for the superior and war between workers below.. and if this is so, how can this be any team work? or motivation as it initial started to be?

Or maybe, it is only me who cut off from the working society now.. I remembered harmony in working few years back and we work as a team, a real team player, and hence, as a company, we stand strong.. 

For now, all I can sense is only people trying hard to protect their own salary, their own benefit, their own face.. and it's often forgotten that at some point of your time in life, you would also need a shoulder to lean on..

It's okay..

It's okay if you're hating me.. because then i do not need to like you
It's okay you're saying im cheapskate.. because it only reflect you being ugly
It's okay if im taking all the blame.. because then it shows how unshameful you are
It's okay if im being misunderstood.. because then i know what am i in you..

Being too strict has its own good.. but a coin have 2 sides..
A competition can motivate you.. but too much of it won't be friendly..

I will be seeing rainbows.. but it's a pity to know you're seeing monotone that you thought is colorful..

sometimes, I wonder.....

OMG.. recently my thoughts are all about Australia..
Wanted to just fly there, thinking ways to stay there, or was it just because i was on holiday mood and that's why i loved there so much..

Sometimes, i wonder if i were still single and no high commitment, i can just leave anytime now..
Maybe, to start a fresh chapter at a country im learning to love.. i dunno :)

It definitely doesn't looks like there is any improvement in my relationship.  So, is this a sign?

Sometimes, like any other people, i will be wondering of the "what if" situations.. 

But putting all aside, i am just missing my days at Australia!

just a thought

I am not sure why do i still stuck with you..
But i wish this is the right one..

Remembering too much lies is not a good thing..
But it's not an easy task to forget about it..

Those feelings that you inflicted in me..
I can still feel it until today..

So don't go on and playing any more games..
If i wasn't your only player..

Happy birthday to you

3 years ago today, i am still resting after having the surgery..
Though wound is pain, but i can never forget the sight of you around me..
You, who being so angel, didn't know cruelty of the world - yet..
But you definitely brings the joy to everyone!

Happy birthday my love!

Happy Birthday to me!!~~

Because at the end of the day, family matters most..

Happy Birthday to me!

never a perfect one

Never once i think there are passbyer that comes perfectly right.. maybe it is because the word "perfect" just seems to be perfectly wrong?

Often we envy those who we heard how good they are and who they belong to.. but really, will people intentionally show their flaw?

But then again, when situations or feelings blinds us, how can we really see clearly?