just another big woman

I guess health has not been improving lately.. sudden nose bleed and gum bleed begins to lose control..
Not to mention, bone pain, hand trembling, nausea, and latest addition - difficult in breathing..

Not sure whether it's really happening or just psychological pain.. but it is suffering..

Sleep hasn't gone any better.. still having less hour of sleep with mind thinking a lot of stuff.. 

But thanks to you, who have been chatting with me all these while to calm me down and avoid me from doing stupid stuff.. 

I'm just a big woman but not a strong one.. i would also wanna hide in a guy's arm seeking for his protection to everything.. thanks to you with the flower, i'm able to feel like a little lady for a moment.. :)

People who sees me as a strong woman, i wouldn't say you're completely wrong.. but i just couldn't see myself in that way.. 

If i've met you earlier, maybe all these heartache wouldn't be happening.. but nothing is ever too late right? You tell me this is all his game.. and that he is enjoying himself fooling around, being happy with whoever he want and secretly going on with his affair.. and when i end his game, you'll stay with me, making me stronger than i thought.. 

So, i'll remember what you say.. and do accordingly.. just remember to stay with me :)