The Invisible

Honestly speaking, I really do not understand why is it so hard for some ppl to follow simple guidelines..

A sign of rebellious? A sign of challenge? A sign of showing who is more superior?

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As to one person has its limit in everything,

I HAVE MINE TOO!

To accept changes at one time, i know it's difficult..

That's why i kept on telling my superior to give them time, and time will let them realise changes is for their better..

But time given is more than enough and yet, still the same mistake happen each time..

I've been dishonest with my heart and make some dishonest report just to cover their butt..

No appreciation from them, i do not blame them..

But indirectly showing disrespect of my visible physical me is a NO NO!

I do not know of how many time i had headache just because of them,

I do not know of how many times i had to be dishonest because of them..

If they felt they are suffering more than me, THINK AGAIN!

Im the one who is in the middle of everything and soon enough, im gonna be dead!

Here, i am not complaining that i should quit what am i doing now..

Point being is giving me all these action that is not acceptable yet you feeling it's right is just pain in the ARSE!

I dun have the responsibility to apologize on your behalf, why should I?

I dun have the power to control you, why should I?

I did not lost temper on any of you for making mistake, why should I?

Still when im being soft, I felt like im being taken for granted, is this how you wan to be treated?

i am done with tolerating with smiles..

Smiles that sometimes is just tears in the heart,

And it's bleeding badly to know how am i being treated when i treat with sincere heart..

So, that's it.. Time to be firm as wat my superior told me..

To be firm and strict, if this is the only option will make them realise..

It is time, to begin now..

Being unfair in fair decision?

He rush come in while i was changing..

He saw me only with my underneath clothes on..

Yet, no action taken against him..

Because he is mentally challenged..

Now, he left me with none but haunted memory, nightmares, and afraid

Sincerely, i wanna get out

Ze Family Potrait

Ever watch in movies of those who took family portraits while the kids are young,

And then update the faces when they are older?

In my family, we never really had a professional family portrait taken..

So, what we had is just our camera =)

Happy Birthday Daddy <3

Redang changed to Pangkor

Hmm.. fair enough, all fully booked at Redang as we only decide last minute,.

So our destination change to Pangkor instead.

To my surprise, it isn't very nice there except the accomodation..

Because,.. not that clean enough for me though *shhh*

A short 3D2N trip went fairly well,

Except the part where im all ache due to the watersport game -_-

Anyhow, will be waiting for the next short trip!! XD

Mom-sy Day

Happy Mother's Day!!

My mom wasn't highly educated, but she taught us manners,

She wasn't the rich type, but enough to make us feel rich with love,

She never hope for much, but for the better of our living,

Through every bumps, she'll be there regardless she have the solution or not..

She is very protective, as she dun allow others to bully us.

She is very brave, to face the pain the very moment she got us in her womb.

She never complaint eventhough I feel the situation is not fair for her.

She only said she understand and doesn't wanna give me hard times.

I am thankful for her in everything.

And I am grateful that she gives me this life.

I am proud to have her in my life as MOM.

And there's no any other words more superior than to say, I Love You.

Mommy, Happy Mother's Day.

I Love You till the very end of my life.

The higher, might not be the better

have you ever felt so much pressure that you are unable to do anything except praying very hard that this will soon be over?

have you ever felt so pressure that there's no one can help u to release it except you, yourself, have to see it in different angle?

i did.. =(

so much pressure that i can only smile to others but crying to myself..

so much pressure that each time waking up to work felt like a heavy stone in my head..

so much hurt that i feel which result in crying overnight on the weekend b4 Monday comes =="

hence, in time, i was thinking, is this the pressure that i deserve?

i do not mean to find any excuses to claim that i'm unable to do..

what im pointing out is that i cannot split myself into half at 1 time..

to be at point A and point B at the same time is IMPOSSIBLE

and i tried to find a solution out, but it's not acceptable among the "bosses"..

what they see in their eyes is that i did not present what they expect me to be..

but what they do not know is i tried at my maximum best to juggle myself between point A and point B..

it's good to have someone guide you and teach you along the way..

but it would be too much and hard to digest if all were pour at once

isn't it a waste?

Bar-B-Q Plaza

The 1st time im a noob in a restaurant XD

Went to Times Square and had late lunch with Hubby at Bar B Q Plaza..

Quite an experienced as we had to look at other table to know how to actually cook the food and eat =p

Surprisingly, we ate for 3 people's portion and yet, hmm.. not really full for me

Then run under the raining weather to get a case for his sis and fly it over to Adelaide

Yes, we're the loving family type.. LOL

*hugzzz*

Mosquito!

i hate you

yes, random.. still i hate you