Her home, Your place

Went pass by her place yesterday, the place where you enjoyed your time there..
The exact place that got me upset, with seeing both of you smiling in car..

Able to cover up isn't your style anymore, and to turn one eye blind is not my style either..
So to come to a conclusion of us being apart seems to be much easier for you..

I sometimes wonder how can you easily agree on staying away from me..
Now i know it's because you have your new place now..

It used to be with me, but now it is with her..
It used to be our place, but now it has became your place..

To accept changes in a positive way is not easy, especially when there is nothing positive that i can see..
Perhaps you showed me in your actions that the only positive thing for me, is that being away from you..

Her home has now become your place..
And soon enough, your place will be her home..

It's not always about the task

For all those who are currently working now, who is employed under a company,
have you been in a situation where the stress / pressure did not come from your job task, but from a person instead?

Be it your colleague / boss, it feels like as if they are testing your patience to the MAX level..

Yes, most of our seniors will be inputting the same comments into our head - "be patience and you will get through it", "this is working life", "if you can't stand such little comments then you won't be success" .

And so, are we being paid to be a scolding bag to the seniors? Are we being paid to do jobs accordingly and then get finger blamed for nothing when something goes wrong? Don't we ALL have the patience limits?

I do love my job.. I gave my heart out for every task I am doing.. Of course, I do not favor situations where I'm being a puppet and be told what to do and then get blamed for just following orders.. Logic? No, it doesn't make sense to me.. it's Nonsense!

A constant change of mind from bosses can not only demotivate an employee but it also confuses them in what to do next..
Next thing you know, your employee will spend half of their time thinking and guessing what their boss really want them to do instead of doing what they normally do best..

Confusing isn't it? I know.. :(

SO what does all these leads to? not productivity, not growth but only stress.. STRESS!

to be honest...

To be honest, I just don't know how to communicate with you..
You are like the ball hanging on a thread.. Wind blows that enable you to move everywhere..
I couldn't understand what you really want.. because it seems like you have a minor Alzheimer..

I do understand that people got their own way of doing work.. mine too!
Some people care for the results, while others care for the process..
But with you, you are just wanting a puppet of your own.. to follow what you want them to do..
A puppet that is a replica of you.. another you.. the twins you..

To be honest, that is not me :)

It is not friendly at all

I understand that some competition can trigger people to be motivated..
It is good especially a friendly kind of competition.. It just helps to move people around..

But too much of the competition can not only make it worst, but also make the people becomes individualist, selfish, fake, and lies.. at least, this is what i think, what i feel..

It has only becomes the "face game" for the superior and war between workers below.. and if this is so, how can this be any team work? or motivation as it initial started to be?

Or maybe, it is only me who cut off from the working society now.. I remembered harmony in working few years back and we work as a team, a real team player, and hence, as a company, we stand strong.. 

For now, all I can sense is only people trying hard to protect their own salary, their own benefit, their own face.. and it's often forgotten that at some point of your time in life, you would also need a shoulder to lean on..

It's okay..

It's okay if you're hating me.. because then i do not need to like you
It's okay you're saying im cheapskate.. because it only reflect you being ugly
It's okay if im taking all the blame.. because then it shows how unshameful you are
It's okay if im being misunderstood.. because then i know what am i in you..

Being too strict has its own good.. but a coin have 2 sides..
A competition can motivate you.. but too much of it won't be friendly..

I will be seeing rainbows.. but it's a pity to know you're seeing monotone that you thought is colorful..

sometimes, I wonder.....

OMG.. recently my thoughts are all about Australia..
Wanted to just fly there, thinking ways to stay there, or was it just because i was on holiday mood and that's why i loved there so much..

Sometimes, i wonder if i were still single and no high commitment, i can just leave anytime now..
Maybe, to start a fresh chapter at a country im learning to love.. i dunno :)

It definitely doesn't looks like there is any improvement in my relationship.  So, is this a sign?

Sometimes, like any other people, i will be wondering of the "what if" situations.. 

But putting all aside, i am just missing my days at Australia!

just a thought

I am not sure why do i still stuck with you..
But i wish this is the right one..

Remembering too much lies is not a good thing..
But it's not an easy task to forget about it..

Those feelings that you inflicted in me..
I can still feel it until today..

So don't go on and playing any more games..
If i wasn't your only player..

Happy birthday to you

3 years ago today, i am still resting after having the surgery..
Though wound is pain, but i can never forget the sight of you around me..
You, who being so angel, didn't know cruelty of the world - yet..
But you definitely brings the joy to everyone!

Happy birthday my love!