nightmare :(

Wasn't sure if i'm affected by lack of sleep recently, but when i do sleep, nightmares arrived. 

I've dreamt of me being dead.. and at my graveyard, i saw my family sobbing and crying.. and then i woke up crying.. 

This dream happen twice and it gives me a kind of bad feeling.. a feeling that i know it'll come true..

Just yesterday, i dream i'm being killed with a razor blade and a kitchen knife.. and i shout till i woke up.. seeing no one but my son - sound asleep..

I know, a dream is a dream.. but in the past, when i dream of these, i had accident.. twice that i remember i thank God for not sending me to hell..

But this time, i wanna go hell.. i wanna rebirth again if i can.. im not saying im giving up my life now.. but i know i have thought several time of dying while giving birth..